omg, where do I start??? I intended to write something last night but that didnt quite happen.

but one things for sure, fuck! I am so sick and tired of moving! TAT its a pain in the ass!
anyways before I get into it. Please allow me to back track real quick.

Last night was kinda fail LOL! me and my friends intended to go to the release party for URBANIST! But when we got to downtown...to our dissappointment, the party was actually being held in a CAFE! Not a club / bar like we had thought it would be! o_O or something? Iunno. I was kinda turned off quickly, normally im not a bar/club person but. the venue was SO SMALL! I love cafes, dont get me wrong, but it felt too cramp just driving by and the search for parking was also a pain in the ass. DAmn you downtown. /:

and lets not get started at our failure in wardrobe. We all had a wardrobe dissaster. I was very ill-preprared and ended up not knowing what to wear =3=ll man, next time I should plan ahead of time instead of wasting a good couple hours throwing outfits together left and right.
I had even left work early to try and get ready and shit. LOL! but ended up not going to the party and etc. Hahaha.
So instead of going to the party, we wandered around Downtown~ I seriously take San Diego for granted! So now I am on a quest to try and experience it more and more *_*

We went to URBAN OUTFITTERS. I have a love / hate relationship with that place to be honest xD! I dont consider myself a HIPSTER. I think thats more of my sister's style but there are some items that I did like at Urban Outfitters. Mostly their baby doll dresses. I've always liked the whole baby doll dress x Dr. Marten combo :D haha. But I cant justify dropping $60 on a dress! LOL I might as well invest that into a BURANDO lolita dress HAHA (thats not even halfway through one but sitll haha) but stlll~ I like looking at the random items they have there. Especially their headphones. Iunno, I really have a thing for headphones D: and I like looking at novelty items for apartments too xD! haha I wish I had my own place to decorate to my hearts desire. I'm so sick of moving TAT and the idea of knowing I have to move again, really doesnt motivate me to really unpack or decorate the room im at rightn ow. Its ok. Thats just how it is.

Anyways, while at Urban Outfitters, my friends found some $20 DR. MARTEN BOOTS! OMFG STEAALL!! yes for having small feet! and yes for finding them in the GUYS Section xD! And of course in all my obnoxious glory, they are PURPLE! HAHAHAHA. I know I already own glittery purple military dr. marten styled boots but those are KNEE high hahahaha. These ones are SHORT ones and are a darker purple/not glittery. Less obnoxious :D I might consider selling my purple knee high ones.

I dont know how well the colors shows up. but yeah :D their love~ hahaha. I kinda really wanted a pair of BLACK ones but my friends pointed out I own too much black as is already anyway. I guess thats true. Haha. Now I'm on a hunt to collect me some baby doll dresses to go with the boots and a nice cardigan or something since I dont like bare shoulders! xD;;

Instead of trying to buy one, I started looking online for some patterns and ideas for different baby dolls~ I really wanna get back into sewing anyway :3 and I figured If I have limited internet acess in where I'll be living in now. I might as well try to be as productive as possible or something. I dont like buying patterns since I can draft my own pattern, but sometimes I just get lazy /: that i'd be easier to just BUY one D: oh noes! lOL!

We wanted to try another cupcake shop in Downtown too but it closes at 10! and we got there pretty late /: so we then instead headed back to BABY CAKES! haha. This time, I wasnt feeling adventrous with cupcakes, iunno, I was really craving VANILLY BEAN cupcakes but they only have reg. vanilla. /: it was kinda...bland. I really want a NICE TASTE and SMELL of Vanilla. Sorry BABY Cakes, I didnt quite get that with your cupcakes /:
I also want to try VANILLA ALMOND CUPCAKES! O_O I might as wel just get back into baking, but! OH YEAH! I dont have a kitchen! STILL! HAHAHA xD;; i neeeed an apartment and maybe I can start a cupcake business of sorts from there HAHA!
 

I also ordered MORACAN MINT Tea. I wasnt impressed with the flavor /: it might bebetter when drank warm, but I got ICED tea instead. Should have stuck with PASSION Fruit tea. well, atleast i TRIED! haha
 

icing art~ boredom at its finest.
LOL. im sure it doesnt look very clear on the photo.

 

Sat around and talked some more~ then we headed home. La~ I tried to watch the THAI version of shutter when I got home. It wasnt quite working. And last night was my last night at my place and I had to pack and move. 

This morning....was...interesting. No one was answering their phone - big drama in me trying to get to where I need to go. But all is well now I shall spare the drama of what happened this morning. BUt as of right now, 75% of the crap I own are in storage! And the rest, are in bags/suitcases that I will not unpack. and will just live out of a suitcase once again like I did back at the Ellwoods.

Theres a few items I didnt think I would need and ended up throwing them in storage but upon arriving to the new room, I need to get some items back. Namely a lamp and some extra pillows. 
For the majority of this week, I'll be bumming at my brothers place, and when mr.E comes back, I guess I'm back to sleeping in the room I'm designated to. I checked the place for some wi-fi connection before I left and I was pretty sure I found an unsecured line! w00tw00t! I heard that one of the people stayingi nthe house has internet O_O mebe when I bump into him, I'll ask if i can leech off the internet for a small fee :D so it wont be so terrible / I wont be confined to starbucks and free wifi places after dark xD and as much as possible, im trying to book up my weekends so I'm not stranded in Lola Gene's house xD! lololol. Andit would help pass the month or two for me faster. I reaally really need to egg phoebe and kuya to get their shits together so we can get an apartment SOON! Since I'm really at the end of my whits almost!

the entire time I was dealing with my lil drama episode this morning, I really just kept thinking that I hate hate hate relying on other people for help or just ingeneral. I feel like I really am better off on my own TAT fuck. but yeah, lets forget about that shall we.

My blonde hime loli wig finally came in, I forgot about it completely. I tried it on and i dont ahve pictures of it sorry, haha it totally doesnt feel like me HAHA but again I did want to try and be diverse in styles~
but I personally think it works very nicely for a GOTHIC lolita dress. YEs. I am on the quest to find the perfect GOTHIC lolita dresses. yes. plural. I want ore than 1. theres just something about the old Gothic and Lolita all black garments that looks so elegant. and pretty. I like sweet lolita to but i really just want to find an elegant black dress. Preferably no prints at the bottom~ the quest begins!!!!!!

ps: last.FM is the next biggest thing I have discovered xD!

 

LAST NIGHT WAS A GOOD NIGHT

Yeah! sadly I probably have not said that in quite sometime now already?! Tonight, I procrastinated on packing more items as well.
I started packing this afternoon but left my room in a mess because I went out with some friends from HS / Middle School! :D
it was good to see them again! The biggest shocker to me was that, one of my friends from middle school / highschool was super super timid back then and it was good to see her again, shes now completely different from how she was back then! :D college really helped her break more and more out of her shell! It was good night. It was a good night for me to get out and 'recharge'. It was a good break :3

we went to Sushi Deli 3. Its a small place near Mitsuwa! But for some reason, I've always taken that place for granted xD!
And omfg! their food is AMAZING and the price is AMAZING! O_O I'm so going back there more and more! HAHAHA :D

We talked alot. catched up. Diane was tempted to order Soju or Sake the entire time we were in Sushi Deli xD! HAhahahaha and funny coz for the longest time I never took her for the type to even bother drinking! LOL. Oh man, times have changed. Its good though. I feel like I can finally talk to her more and more about other stuff now :3 and shes quite out going now too! SO I might take them to Little Tokyo for Nisei Week! These girls needs to get out more often!

We then proceeded to BABY CAKES! In Hillcrest! A super cute cup cake bakery cafe and bar :3

Karen treated me to my beloved Red Velvet Cupcake! and a caramel latte! <3 OH GOODNES IT WAS LOOOOVE
I wanted to try their traditional Vanilla cupcake too but I was full from the Katsu and Gyoza before hand.

The cappucino bean cake didnt really taste like expresso like the description said, but it was still good. The other cake next to it was chocolate with strawberry jam! I didnt really know the name of the cake but it was sitll good :3
but Diane kept saying that the cupcakes were good but nothing beats "Sprinkles" a cupcake place in Orange County. Ooooh I must track it down next! :D

but yes, Baby Cakes is such a coool place to go! And their open quite late too! :3 I love Hillcrest. Hate the parking xD but the place is amazing, lovely place to hang out and shop :3 check out their site! http://www.babycakessandiego.com/
-pimppimp- lol, its also ran by some FABULOUS men xDDD their so funny hahaha.

Next cupcake quest! I want to try and find VEGAN cupcakes! I am very curious to try me some vanilla bean vegan cupcakes! xD

After Baby Cakes, we walked around Hilcrest despite most of the places already being closed. We just walked around and planning where we want to go to next when the places are actually open. I walked around as the girl's tour guide for the most part. Since I guess among all of us I've been down there the most. Haha. Its fun. We stopped by American Apparel to window shop and some guy was dropping off some flyers toa new magazine called Urbanist! It sounds so cool! :D a guide to San Diego. I seriously take SD for granted! And I'm so happy Di and Karen are willing to get out more! :3 no more lonely nights I hope! and their willing to try go clubbing again and just checking out cool events like wine tasting xD! publication parties and gallery openings!!! TAT omg im soooo happy to finally find people to go with! omgoodness I dont wanna leave SD xD for Florida at all! LOLOL

but yes, whie were were looking at the publication, the guy that had dropped off the brochures handed us invitations to a release party for the new publication! :D its a free party, thusday night too :3 it starts at 7:30 but I get off work at 8. Its ok the party will go on till 10 or 11 and I planned on taking Friday off anyway to move my stuff around :D and we girls are going! oh yes youth! xD
Sadly I already threw most of my clothes into boxes! LOL! I need to dig out atleast 2-3 'nice' outfits LOL oh my haha.

but yes, it'd be good. I'm not a big optimist, but I need to try and make the best of life, if I dont, then I'll just be as miserable as I am now.

 

AX 2010 Con report

At work with clearly nothing better to do! LOLZ

delayed (once again coz I'm awesome at writing super delayed stuff. I think I disregarded the NY trip too) AX con report! More like, just a blog for me to write since there really wasnt much to report about /:

I feel like I'm going to be missing alot of details here xD haha. Well, thats what the 'edi't button is for later? HAHA!

Day 1:

I dont think I took that many pictures - of myself, personally. So I might have to start stealing photos from everyone else :D coz I fail like that!

5am - rolled out of bed to get ready xD and catch a train from Solana Beach to LAX Union Station.

That in upon itself was quite an adventure :D

It wouldnt have been so bad but I was lugging my huge suitcase, my backpack and 2 swords wraped in fabric and clearly protruding out of my suitcase. I wraped the swords up to avoid suspicion xD from security at the tran stations LOL!

I arrived at LAX around 8:50 and had to trut my stuff down to the metro to get a metropass and proceed to try and use the metrolink system with luggage in tow! I was so nervous I'd get confused or lost! Or that the trains would be packed TAT

thankfully it wasnt haha! but when I finally to my last stop at LACC. I got stopped my security! OMFG i was so nervous that they'd ask me to unwrap the swords xD but thankfully the lady just pulled me aside to inform me that I should watch out for my stuff. I guess I had bumped into her in my rush to get to the con HAHA!

Got to the con around 9-10ish? I think it was mostly 10ish. Went to check in with Mei in her hotel at the JW Marriot to check inwith her first and drop off her Hakuouki costume that I sewed. Left my swords with her and her group. Went to line up for the shuttle (and lied through my teeth about not getting my pass / badge yetxD!) and went to check into our hotel at the Westin.

Changed into Hakuouki - Heisuke. And went back to JW Marriot to help Mei and Nick get ready for their Hakuouki cos. I did Nick's Saito Wig and helped Mei out with her hair piece for Chizuru.I was quite nervous the costume wouldnt fit her! XD but she turned out to be the cutest Chizuru there *in my personal humble opinion :DDDD*

As if you havent grown tired of seeing these photos everywhere~ I shall spam them here too! XDD

We were running a bit late, so I think they ended up skippng the May'n pannel. I couldnt have gone either way coz I didnt have a badge ;P

sadly enough halfway through the day, Katie, Toshi's cousin lost her camera D: they had to go and retrace their steps over andover, to not avail it wasnt found.

I dont think I stayed in Heisuke long. It was too hot D: wig and all~ and the swords were quite a hassle. We were suppose to have a photoshoot with a photographer at 8pm. But I wanted to get out of costume already and get ready for the X Concert around 6. Went and did their photoshoot instead (Mei and Nick, since I think the photographer never showed up) and we went back and di Toshi's photoshoot too :3 and went and got changed fort he X Concert.

Clearly we were alittle late LOL coz we ended up being waaayyy back in the line! awesomesauce hu?!

OH! I also met Mei's awesome buddies from Canada :D kekekeke.

anyways, yeah got ready for X Japan concert. (OMFG I should have packed better shit =3=)

Toshi looked hot as always xD I on the other hand...yeah lets not go there.

but wowers. Nokia Club was bitchyyy...

metal detectors, no water bottles and dayum. One of the securitys almost wanted to have me and toshi take off ALL the metal stuff we had on. Ummmmyeah good luck with that buddeh D': but they ran that little thingie instead to check where else I had metal. ThANKFULLY they didnt see the knife I had with me =3=;;; (it was in my backpack. I forgot to take it out) And we had to chug our water bottles out =3=ll

X - JAPAN WAS FUCKING EPIC!!!!

Cure I believe also hosted a Visual Kei contest. The fuckign shit about it was that YOshiki was being a lazy fag and just picked the first few people who got in line (aka peopel cosplaying as JROCKERS. Hizaki, Kyo and etc) no fense to them, they did amazing work on theri costumes but there were far more deserving people out there. W/e. It was okies.

They started the show off with this funny MC Lady xD who talked way too much and clearly had no idea wtf was going on. lulz.

They did the honorary 'what is Yoshiki Foundation' it was quite touching :D (I wont go into detail about it in this blog. Will probably do an entry about it and a more detailed entry regarding the concerts / shows at black-heaven.net's blog section)

anyways~

They also proceeded with the H.Naoto fashion show, part of the collection was a collaboration between H.Naoto and X's Yoshiki.

I took photos of it but had to delete them to make room on my camera, I was shooting RAW most of the time. But Toshi has vids from her cam. Will steal from her later :D

The designs were alright, very haute-couture :D and the yoshiki collabs were, well, clearly reminiscent of X's old styles. Lots of Trench Coats and pants and gaudy metallics~

inbetween down times, the DJ was blasting techno to new wave music to try and keep the crowd entertained. I was pretty much feeling impatient and drained since the show technically didnt start will 10 D: but they started letting people in at 8. I was jsut too tired from walking all day and not having much sleep the night before XD!

I didnt get as good shots of the Fashion Show since the bouncer guy kept us behind the mosh pit! D: ugh lame!! but thankfully enough after everything was done, and they proceeded with setting the stage up for X Japan's show / PV shooting, the bouncer let me through and I quickly pushed my way through the front of the stage :D and chaos ensued from there!!!

at the end of the weekend I had this:

-insert photo of fucked up hand-

and yes ladies and gentlemen, that IS the same arm I fucked up in last years accident.

I also came out bruised LOL but I didnt notice the bruises or swollen arm till 2 days AFTER AX! XD or wait....the monday night that I came back did I notice. I was probably running in adrenalien the entire time LOL which I clearly was! xDDDD

but yes, I kept pushing my way through the front!! they kept replaying the song listing over and over, which this was technically IS for a video shooting. There was fire works, and cage dancers! and epicness!!!! and omfg. I was up close and got some godly shot of hte band :D mostly of Sugizo. Heath and Pata was on the other side TAT

but I gotta give them props tho! I like their music now more than I did before LOL (yesh, bash me you X fans, bash me!! because personally, I liked luna sea more before XD and from X I only really liked more of their ballad songs and a few select songs LOL yesh. fail me. fail.) and props to them more to still be able to perform at top level after how many years?! All in all, it was a good way to open up the convention :D

After the concert, we were all about ready to pass out haha. None of us got any sleep the night before! Toshi and her cousins had at midnight that night to arrive at the con at 5 or 6 am. I shortly followed by train. xD

Got ready for the next day and whatnot~

DAY 2!!!

Day 2 was Vocaloid day~

Had to get up early to go get ready and this was the day my siblings would drive up. And also was May'ns CONCERT :DDD YESSSSH!!!!

-insert cellphone photos-

After getting ready. Walked 3 blocks down to the Wilshire (my hotel last year) to help my brother get ready for his Dudley costume. Apparently he was a huge hit with everyone beingthe only dudley there. aka, I like to call him Mr. Diddles. The costume came out well, I just personally hate the pants D: WILL REMAKE!!!

I didnt get to hang with them at all! haha. busy running around playing cameko

xD

MAY'N & MEGUMI NAKAJIMA CONCERT!

YESH! I didnt buy my ticket but got inline for tickets! :DDD

THE CONCERT WAS FCKING AMAZING!!! our row kinda sucked coz we didnt have any glow sticks but that didnt stop me from fist pumping like crazy xD!!!!

yesh, my uber otaku moment :D

but she did put on an amazing show! May'ns english was suprisingly very well and though she didnt have an elaborate stage set up the performance was still super amazing and you cannot believe how many times I'd spazz whenever she transitioned from one Macross song to another xD I just went crazy when they announced MEGUMI NAKAJIMA and they did their duets!!!! :DDDD

Megumi was also very cute and bubly!! good songs, good performances!!! :DDD

and Megumi announced a SPECIAL GUEST! DUNDUDUN!!!

the entire time I was on the edge of my seat thinking it might be Ozma (since he was already at AX but meeh that wouldnt be too much of a suprise) I kinda had my money on Lin Min Mei's old voice actress xD! LOL old school macross ftw! but to our suprise, they announced....

YOKO KANO!!!!!! She played backup piano for the girls :D I even went crazier LOL

gawd I jsut totally let loose the entire weekend, I'm suprised I havent lost my voice during the X concert and still had enough in me to go insane during the Macross Concert XD!

ALL IN ALL, IT WAS AN AMAZING CONCERT!! 8DDDDD WAAAAAAH

I kinda wish I had been more prepared TAT (really wanted to cosplay as KlanKlan. but maybe next year?!)

Mei's group did an amazing job with their Macross Frontier costumes :3

*shamelessly plugs in photos she took*

8D yesh, you all will be sick and tired of this soon enough. But trust me buddy! I got more xD!

but um yeah! We did Voacloid this day, ti was suppper hooot TAT and omfg. The headphones toshi made were pretty epic. Too bad we didnt get to do a night shot, it was too hot we had to change out ASAP. The headphones light up! :D

we were missing quite afew details on the costumes. -3-ll was running out of time LOL. Ah. sad.

bad photos are bad o-oll omfg I need to refit that shirt XD!

man for some reason day2 seems more or less like a blur to me xD haha! wow am I that lame that I dont remember much on day 2?! o___Oll

I know we changed out ASAP coz the wigs were HOOOOT D: and had planned on attending the MELL concert but that didnt quite happen xD! we were too tired. but we ended up chilling at Mei's hotel lobby the JW Marriot, since it was super swanky and snazzy :D

we did an impromptus 'host style photoshoot' which pretty much gave birth to the idea of BLACK HEAVEN :D kekekeke. business business endevour~

I really loved the lobby of JW Marriot, I really wanna book that hotel next year :D *save save!!!*

We just hanged around after dark, photoshoot after photoshoot~ (since I didnt finish magnet miku, coz Mei didnt finish her magnet luka either LOL)

we went to NERD COURTING. Funny pannel was funny. But we were msotly in the quest to find a hot chick to take the host style photos with D:

we walked up and down the hotel / convention and even went into the dance! (ok, sorry, I was not impressed by the DJs xD) we just stood there and looked cool haha / took more pics xD

and went back, and walked around some more then went back to the hotel to pass out~

it wasnt as eventful at night as I wanted. But it was ok~ we had fun :D

DAY 3

Now this is when we hit the 'fun button' up a notch a bit more! :D

(I had several photoshoots scheduled from day 1 and 2 that kept getting pushed back /: so fail~)

got up early this day to get ready and do a SUPER QUICK Lamento photoshoot with Toshi at the park by our hotel. I wish we had more time to shoot. but the security was beginning to give us weird looks TAT!

-INSERT LAMENTO PHOTOS-

Then I had to walk down to the Sheraton to help Ruka Starr with her Falcoon Jam. I didnt bring Falcoon bridget since I insist on fixing it up (fully remaking) but had to run as soon as toshi texted me the Sophia concert was going to start xD!

but dammmnn it took the shuttle almost 30 mins! to get to us! IM LIKE WOAHH WTHH?!

the Sophia concert was.....................colorful to say the least o_O

I had to leave early coz people were blowing up my phone (my photoshoots that kept getting pushed back due to peoople not beign ready or me being dragged elsewhere)

After knocking out some of the photos:

-insert photos here-

I walked around the convention taking photos of cosplayers while I waited for Toshi to get out of the SOPHIA concert. The convention, like every photographer has complained about - was quite limited in its settings. Alot of Toshi's photos we had to take somewhere else.

rararawrr more photossss and theres plenty more to edit and upload O_Oll

I'm supposedly working on getting a stupid gallery thingie up but its bullshit coz dreamhost keeps being a bitch about it :D so I'll eventually have that up. For now, I'll be posting them on

tumblr | Deviantart | flickr

went back to hotel to change~ (I wasntin cosplay) but I just dropped $120 on an Alonquins jaket that I was eyeing the entire weekend xD and bought a wacom tablet and agundam model for my little brother. Dropped off the goods and changed outfits for night~

Went to Little Tokyo to meet up with Megan in her yuuko kimono that I made (she painted it) and dinner~

I sadly skipped out on Mei's dinner party at CPK. But I bought her a cake xD! coz I felt so bad not going haha! Dropped by to give her, her cake Went back to the con to take more 'host style' photos and killed time while waiting for Mei to finish her party to do the Macross Date photos

-insert photos-

meanwhile, me and Toshi killed time at the Marriot again at the lounge with more HOST PHOOTOS!

I actually ORDERD a drink from the bar just for the sake of the photoshoot xD! greygoose vodka + strawberry + a splash of orange juice. I hate drinking. It makes me warm xD

around 11ish, Toshi went off to the GACKT Screening while I chilled some more for Mei to finish freshening up and on with the photoshoot we went!~

I also met Mei's friend, Shou who was also the 2nd photographer for the night :3

after shooting, we headed back to their hotel to chill and take rediculous photos of the ravenous Miju who devoured left overs from dinner xD and tried on Mei's wig for lolz~

chilled abit in their room waiting for something to happen *-*

went up the hotel with Mei to fetch her friend I think from a party????? the guy that opened the door insisted we all took shots but I was like oh hell no xD and bolted my ass out of there LOL

And just chilled the rest of the night /: walking around~ I ended up heading back to the hotel at 1 or 2 coz my roomates were all getting ready to sleep except Toshi, and I hate coming back to a room where everyones asleep already xD i hate being sneaky sneaky lolz!

Day 4

OMFG Last and final day TAT sad me is sad!!!!!

Did a quick photoshoot for Toshi in her Diedritch costume, it was hot :D and we chilled MORE at the lounge of the JW marriot and took MORE photos HAHAHA that was my fav. spot the entire weekend! xD talked some more about our ridiculous business endevour :D

met up with Mei's group to say good byes TAT and Toshi walked me back to the Hotel to grab my shit and off I go back to OC / SD D':

We ended up stopping by OC at my aunts fro the 4th of July, everyone went to see the fire works but I had to cram in my HW and exams LOL!

BUT DAMMIT MY BROTHER WAS STUPID. He told me I could have stayed ANOTHER day (coz Toshi wouldnt have left till Monday and I had Monday off) but he told me TOOLATE! UGH XD w/e

I spent all of monday anyway wanking with the tablet~

dundundunnnn concludes my AX weekend~

2 post in one day?! whuut?! or was it 3?! clearly this is me avoiding sewing my life away so soon xD;;

after work, I ran to Baskin Robins to get me some Snickers Ice Cream :3
my guilty pleasure. The sad thing was. The guy that was serving me must have looked at me like I'm some kind of loser D:
for...
1. I'm buying ice cream by myself.
2. I'm too cheap to buy 2 scoops xD
3. I didnt have CASH on me, and the minimum for debit transactions was $5! but he let me get away with it.
it was kinda embarrasssing coz I keep thinking that these kids/guys must go to the same school as my sister...err...her old school atleast HAHA. But I'm pretty sure their not on sabre team! I dont want them talking to my sister going 'hey! i saw your older sister buying ice cream by herself on a friday night!'
xDDD oooohhh maaaan ROFLMAO

oh thats quite pathetic. yes. its not new that I simply spend Friday nights alone LOL.

so I decided to walk around the parking lot eating my ice cream and I went to CVS and just browse around.
Was testing out new foundations too and etc. Then I ended up at Target. Bumming around, Not really wanting to come home. because, theres nothing or no one to come home to D:
I always come home to a dark house. or a house thats not even mine. Filled with people I dont know. and I proceed to lock myself in my room for the duration of the night.

Times like these I wish I was somewhere else. DOing something else.
At school. Working on a project. In a dorm in a university, studying my ass off or working on a project till the the break of dawn. Or at some concert. A late night photoshoot. Or in New York or Downtown LA in my own pad overlooking the city. It would probably still be lonely, but I'd sit in my balcony overlooking the dingy city.

but yeah while at target~ I picked up a new lip balm LOL. its COTTON CANDY! I'm a sucker for cotton candy. Cant lie about that :D ahahaha and I remember my mom / dad use to get us the SMACKERS brand and I was like O_O hoshit I didnt know they came jumbo like that LOL and obviously curiosity got the best of me and wanted to dive back a few years back~
its yummy LOL!

and I also got a 'compression' shirt. Basically its just a super tight work out shirt LOL that I can use for binding down for AX.



but yeah back to what I was talking about earlier. I sometimes wonder what people think?
I've sat at yogurt world by myself before too with headphones on though.
but sometimes when I do that. I sometimes wonder to my self.
What do people think? What they think - does it even matter? I'm simply curious.

anyways. I had intended on writing something longer and somewhat more philosophical about it but clearly that has escaped my mind LOL! my head tends to wonder off when I'm driving home.

anyways...

I think my bag has alot of crap. I carry too much crap in my backpack.
I have random items in there...




lol....vitagummies~ my mom sent me some vegetable and fruit vitamin gummies LOL coz I dont eat enough of them. So for convenience purposes I stuff it in my backpack O_O
and my makeup bag~ which carries...my life LOL! In it...lets seee..
2-3 sticks of eyeliner LOL
sharpener
lip balm
and cotton candy flavored lip balm
lip stick and gloss - which I rarely wear
powder
tooth paste and tooth brush. LOL yes! I carry tooth paste and tooth brush with me! this is why my makeup bag is so stuff! D:

I really should minimize my stuff more.

Drinks~ planner~ notebook~
mp3 player + charger (you never know when that shits going to die on you!)
DS + charger (again! same reasoning!)

I think with a big back pack, you just tend to fill it up because you can! bad habbit is bad D:
and for some reason I also have an issue of Game Informer in there xD;;

and 2 unopened sticks of Haichu candy and 1 granola bar which I'm sure got sucked into the deep darkness of the abyss that is my back pack. Yes. Quite unfashionable :D

I really should be sewing instead of wanking around the computer~

so I just realized I havent played video games in so long.
I want to play games D:

SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK! :D LIFE IS MOVING A MILE A MINUTE
lololol. theres no time for stopping / sleeping @.@

busy week is busy TAT

I'm soooo exhausted but I cant complain / bitch about it because work needs to be done! D':

last night I worked on 2 wig commissions! w00t w00t knocked them out of the ball park!

but I still got a few more sewing to do D: and alot of errands and chores to run.
I'm seriously about ready to pass out.
lol the other night, I came home instead of going to the gym and PASSED out on my bed @.@ and woke up in a panic!
xD thinking that I might have slept the night away! jeeeez con stress. I havent dealt with this in a while hahahaha. Its more insane now though coz theres just so many other things going on TAT

FUCK MONKEY.

I still gotta do this:

-Order the fake mustache for bro's costume
-FIND a white shirt for bro and sew ruffles onto it
-PAINT his gloves TAT
-Finish Megans kimono AND waist cincher
-FINISH MY AND TOSHI'S TOPS! EGONERIOHNEH DDD':
-I dont remember if I have to make Mei's boots anymore or vest D': i have no time or money anymore LOL

and I'm BROKKKE I just did my account log again TAT and I just ordered my train ticket today too. whoo~
I also left my 1st job early today coz I got called in to my 2nd job D: hopefully the boss at job1 doesnt mine me leaving so abruptly lately. and the bullshit thing is, I forgot to ask for time off for AX! D: I dont think they mind....? but I need to ask them on monday anyway. I'm just worried coz of all the mess ups lately.

I'm exhausted / drained xD / burnt.

Sat:
- Wake up SUPER early at 7am! Recycle cans from grandma house and give the money to my brother =3=ll
- GO HOME and SHOWER ASAP and haul ass up to Oceanside (40 mins away) and meet with Ruka and help her style her Falcoon jam wig. I'm still debating if I'll bring Falcoon Bridget with me. Most likely not unless I decide to go a darker blonde for AX when clearly my hair is like silver blonde x black x purple. I stuck extensions at the bottom but its a DARKER blonde TAT so I need to find light blonde to match the rest of my hair xD coz I doubt toner would work on the extensions, their a milk tea color D:
i mean, its not THAT bad lol. but I'm just hardcorexx
- AFTER working in Oceanside, I gotta haul back down to SD and SEWWW like crazy!
- 1 AM Anthony is coming to pick-me up and go to Menifee coz I need to sew there like crazy on sunday / help Amanda

Sunday:
- I should be already in Menniffee again sewing / helping Amanda sew like a mad woman
- Head back down to SD and get ready for work!

Monday:
- PLS PLS PLS TRY AND SQUEEZE IN GYM TIME!

Tuesday:
-CLASS STARTS!

Tuesday - Thursday: Attempted to catch up on HW

Friday night:
- TRY not to pass out :D
- catch up on home work!
- SEW!

Saturday:
- Heading up to LA to meet with Courtney to style her wig!
- play around at Little Tokyo / Find korea town since my sister has never been there
- drive back
- sew some more

Sunday:
- FUCK I BETTER HAVE EVERYTHING DONE BECAUSE AX IS THE WEEK AFTER THIS LOLOL!!!!

Yes, here is my hectic schedule. Is hectic and I still havent figured out what to wear to AX / sewn anything other than cosplay to wear!

And I'm too busy juggling other peoples stuff D:

Tonight - I will try not to pass out, I WANT to treat myself to some Baskin Robins and get the 'sneakers' ice cream one O_O
ommmmg I loooooove that TAT but I feel bad spending shit on myself when clearly I need to spend money on the kids instead of me D':

ok, I admit I suck badly at updates. I definitely try and update my LiveJournal more, but yeah
thats 'friends locked' only. But I dont discriminate on who add me/i add. Just pls drop me a line.
The only reason why i kept it friends locked is coz I tend to talk about more...well, other stuff
but honesly. 80% of the time I just talk about nonsense there so I dont know why I dont convert
part of it to be public? iunno~ lol. I just fail like that :D
theres a nice sense of seperation regardless. I think. So. um. Yeah.

Progress has definitely slowed down on working on AX items. I havent even asked for
time off yet from my 1st job! WOW D: I need to do that. I've already cleared it with my 2nd job.
So its all good I think for the most part.

AX Break Down:
-Hakuouki - Heisuke Western ver.
very very closet rushed cosplay.
I'm borrowng the wig from Toshi, I like to call it her ikemen wig :D lolz~
white button up shirt is courtesy of my brothers closet
the vest, which looks quite expensive despite it being so simple o-oll is courtesy of Shin's closet
which I'm sure hes not aware I have?D: suuuush LOL (it doesnt help when I'm clearly posting this publicly
but he doesnt read my blogs so whutevah?) well, Steph handed me the vest so I'm guessing doosh left it there?
whutevs xD hahahaha

-Vocaloid - Eager Love Revenge.
I already finished my skirt and Toshi's pants. Slowly painfully working on the shirts
which honestly shouldnt even take me that long! But I've spent a good chunk of time
working on other peoples costumes / helping people on their costumes.

I still have 2 wigs to style for a friend which I havent had time to work on.

My family is in town, well my siblings are. And. hehehe. Drama. Miscommunication.
Lotsa driving around, wasting gas and etc~

nyaaah I need my paycheck NOW DDD: I only have $100 which is good for the hotel, but I still gotta
get a day badge and my train ticket up there and hoping to have some spending money on the side when I get up there
I'm not even looking at much but atleast to HAVE SOME sort of pocky money would be awesome~

I got 3 packages that came in for me yesterday~ yay.
but fail~ for no pictures HAHA!

1 - stainless steel surgical earrings. Their the same ones U-Know wears from DBSK
I'm not a big DBSK fan at all, but I needed new earrings? XDD and they were dirt cheap via ebay~
and hahah sorry I'm going to gross you guys out but LOL
when I took off my gauges to replace them with the earrings I got~ oh man! foul smell was foul!
O_Oll so I cleaned it up reaaaaaaaaaal good xD gaawd that was nasty hahahaha

2 - business cards, ghetto business cards freecourtesy of Vista Prints. I just took
their generic designs. I also placed my 'myspace' instead of my website coz I havent gotten around to buying a domain yet
D: and I need to get working on that. I know I'm sorry I keep telling myself that!
but! I"ve also been working on articles to upload onto the new blog site soon? :D
and tutorials as well? :D

3 - film for my fujiinstax. To tell the truth. I have 40 films for it, but I kinda want more O_Oll
I know I probably wont run through all of the films but still! D: its a security thing haha
so I think I might order another 20 JUST incase D':

Also! AX weekend~~ me and toshi are probably going to run off to the theatre sometime to check out the
AVATAR AirBender movie. I'm REALLY iffy ok, UNHAPPY with the casting! I swear
if the next movie with Toph comes out and shes not asian D: ommmmmfg thats just fucked up.
lol no i'm not racist but I still vote that Dante Basco SHOULD have been Zuko =3=

But yeah, with my family in town and etc. Its been hard for me to try and squeeze in the time
to try and finish working on a few costumes! D: and not to mention the space especially when my
sister is crashing with me in my room from time to time.
And I've been deadly exhausted lately.

but yeah, this entry is definitely on a much lighter note.

EDIT:
LOL DAYUM my hair is so fried that my jmullet turned into an A-line LOLZ the bottoms are friiiied
lol.
so I stucked back extensions in again xDll just the shorter ones not the hella long ones I had before.
Too bad the ones I have are like....BLONDE not Silvergreyish like my hair xDD so I was looking at ebay and I found some
16" greyish silver and silvery blonde ones too O_Oll for $15~ I migh ask them if I can split the quantity for silvery blonde x greyish silver so I get two tones. but I doubt i'll come in, intime for AX~ but I emailed them anyway to see how it bodes~