LOL OMFG WHAT?! I just spoke to a very angry customer on the phone whos accent and voice and tone and everything sounds s almost exactly like the actor from The Transporter! :O whuuuuuut.So tired. =___= I had to drraaaggg myself out of bed for the first time since I finished school D: wow. whut. fail. lolol my nails match my drink.fail for blurry picture o-ollthe razr sucks for photos LOL!I miss my old phone now /:
=__= im so tired of working but I checked my email earlier and my mom sent in an email, begging me to move to Florida, saying that shes worried sick coz my brother was a dumbfuck and called my mom and complained that theres no grocery money D: wtf. see. this is why i cant quit my 2nd job to go back to school coz I gotta send money back home to her, to dad AND feed my brother =____= rantrantrant.its frustrating coz his other job hasnt called his schedule in yet so his ass is only working 2 days a week at Sea World while I have to use my money a majority of the time to feed him =__=;
I realized I really have a bad temper regarding people who are one-uppers. who think that their always better than you without even knowing who you are. I try to think humbly and give people the benefit of the doubt but dont you dare say you're godly compared to me or think your the shit when you've barely walked a step in my shoes >__>
the one thing thats going to be the highlight of my night tonight: LA Ink. I was dissappointed the barnes and nobles I went to last night didnt have it. I have half the mind of driving to the one in Carmel Mountain just to get it /: coz I hate waiting even though the Barnes & Nobles here said they'll order it for me but can take a few days D:
lol, on my, lets see what my desk has to offer. /: it is quite a mess no? but LOL. not much as you can telll. lets see what we have here... on the screen, I'm currently screening 14 sai no haha. Its a story about a 14 yr old junior high student who gets preggers. Its very slow progressing but its only 11 eps long. Curiosity got the best of me /: so I had to watch it.
I have an Avon Catalog, I took it from work and I browse through it when I'm bored LOL. rice cake snacks, my keys. xbox controller and my keys attached to the xboxlanyard i got from working at gamestop. sketchbook and art stuff burried under the avon catalog. cellphone, acuvue contact lens solution, my contacts (circle lenses) burried somewhere under the xbox controller probly. And Garnier Leave-in Conditioner. I personally use ENJOY leave in conditioner or Joico but ran out and I found that bottle in one of my suitcases, so...cant be put to waste now can it? LOL. and teaaaa~
lol shit blendy pens and hahahaha couldnt help it, 3D glitter paint hahaha. We use to use nail-polish at cosmo school when we got boredXD;; but its hard to scan /: since the nail polishes dont really show up as nicely hahahaha. especially the glitter ones. I doubt these paints would be any better lol.
heres the art stuff my friend got me, she brought me the sketchbok, watercolor (burried under the sketch book) and oil pastels. i havent finished the sketch I was working on /: probly will do it when I'm uberly bored again. Oil Pastels, I personally think looks great on sand paper TAT or on a canvas D: I wanna get canvas's and arcrylic paints ~____~ I really wish I had a studio to call my own and a better hand at art. D:
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after seeing Fi and Ayato's videos and photos....it reminds me... damn, i want a kigurumi XD;; i made a black gloomy bear one before but I threw it away since we moved D: I wanna get one for my sister and myself, though shes far away. I think she;d want one lol since she wrote on her tumblr that shes into Rilakuma now too. And she likes teh white one and that she thinks i should be the poo colored one o_O ironic, me and shin both have matching 'poo' colored rilakuma charms i got us for our phones from little tokyo. i got her one of the white one while i was at ax.
Which reminds me, kuma-chan needs a bath D: hes way dirty LOL
OOMMMMGGGG wtf is wrong with me?! i've been feeling terribly sluggish this last couple days =___= I feeel so stupid and lazy, all I do is work, sleep, eat, work. its an unending disgusting cycle. I should get up and walk around tomorrow, run, bike. DO Something. this is starting to get quite disgusting.I'm so sick and tired of sitting here at the office constantly yawning like i'm exhausted when really I've done nothing to really make me this exhausted. so, its like WTF?! D:It cant possibly be the stress. Ax is long over, shit happens, life goes on. The accident happened almost a month ago! yeah, again this happens I'm ready to move on. but wtf. =___=ugh.lately, i've been reading blogs and blogs and blogs. it helps pass the time away at work.and I've come to the point that wow, as easy as my job is at Marukai is, I'm so sick of working the 2nd job D: its nice coz it fills in my time and gives me money but I've hit a slump now and I've just been feeling super lazy ~___~ wtf is going on.I'm kinda getting tired of the extensions, I like teh long hair look but I sometimes like to play around with my shorter hair. but still /: hmm, I'm probly being dumb. I need to start getting into shape again, this is turning disgusting =___=
Sunday, July 26, 2009
bored out of my mind. Sitting here watching Law & Order SVU Marathon. I feel like such a couch potato. I wanna draw, paint or sew. I wanna make dread falls even though just my last entry was talking bout how I'd been like into this whole FOB styling thing haha. Iunno. Boredom.
I'm waiting for my friend or brother to come over so we can go get In and out burgers. They have amazing burgers. I'm starving.
I'm not much of an artist but lately, I've been feeling like I wanna try something different. I wanna buy a small canvas and see how far I can get. I'm not an amazing artist, I cant draw anime style like most people on DA. but I do like alternative styled art. I wanna get a sketch book but Icant find it in me to draw anything on it. I have markets and pencils but I prefer acrylics, oil paints, and canvases. Oil pastels and sandpaper. I feel so limited since I cant do much here. I dont have the room to work. I should sew something like the dresses from Kera and pretend I'm a designer. Just like how i'd like to pretend I'm an artist.
Went to the mall with my friend and older brother to pick up a few things I've needed and also to pick up a present for Mrs.E since she was nice enough to take me in for the time being till we get our shit together. Shes moving to Hawaii tomorrow but her husband will still have the house but I'm not sure for how much longer I can bum around here so I need to get going and get my stuff together. Definitely!
Picture dump picture dump since I got inspired to play around with my camera. I've been thinking about either a 50mm lens or a Fisheye Lens but after talking to my sister, I think I should get the Fish Eye lens first since its cooler and would definitely work well for alot of the alternative styled shoots I tend to do. And I can debate between the wacom tablet or a the 50mm lens afterwards but of course before the lenses, I should get my eyes checked and after FAFSA pulls through I should get a laptop since my desktop right now is most definitely being a little bitch and is dieing, its already crashed out on me 3 times already just in this last year alone. Well considering I've had this for over 5 years now? thats pretty decent for a Dell as well /: most definitely thinking of getting a white sony. But after looking at Bestbuy.com, they have it in red! :O but its an ugly dark red LOL, even the metal rose(pink) doesnt look too bad but again I am not a pink person and I think I would prefer to get the white one for a change. But its funny coz I've always been a red person. hmm /: who knows, we'll see haha. I also should consider getting an external hard-drive. It'd be nice to be able to save back-ups of my photos that I've taken for shoots too :O
Originally when I first started uploading the pics, they were suppose to be in a decent order so that this entry would make more sense but I guess that failed. So, onto the pictures and my commentaries to go with it.
wow, this is me, so plain, without makeup and all that hair haha. Yes, my real hair is quite short. I wear clip-on extensions. I use to had them permanently on my head but that got quite tiring /: and fusions were a bitch LOL. Nothing beats good ol' clip-ons. I wanna get 25" ones :O so I can curl them like those girls in Ageha lol, and they'd just shrink up to 20" or 18" as oppose to when I curl my 18" TAT they shrink quite a bit.
also! Hah! Another thing I did today, I bleached my eyebrows LOLOLOL. Well, I applied bleach on them to lighten them up so they dont look so harsh and DARK against my light brownish hair 8D and I definitely like them better now >3 the little things do make a difference I guess haha. Wow, I am incredibly vain. Excuse me :P
messy room is messy and so is the desk. The pikachu face on the chair finally faded off. Time to draw on another one! D: the art inside the closet isnt mine, they were drawn there before I got there since I am staying in Stephanie's room, she drew them inside her closet back when she was in HS? I guess lol coz she was bored at the time haha. this is the little things I brought from home with me D: I dont have alot to decorate the room with since I didnt feel like decorating someone else's room that I'll only be temporarily staying at, you know? but I bought that poster earlier and my brother got me a frame for it, and thats all I have but it definitely feels alittle bit more comfortable and homey being in this room. Though I have left the walls baren for the longest time since i've been here. But that piece of paper framed up against the wall feels like it makes the world of a difference TAT
I got this shirt in clearance earlier hahahaha, though I personally have a love x hate relationship with Hot Topic, I gotta give them props for being the only place I can get my gamer apparel haha
got new 'cow' kicks, high tops. I definitely do have a diverse style and I tend to go through different phases and looks haha. I've been meaning to get a pair of high-tops like those for I guess not too long ago /:? It was mostly influenced from watching too much of 2ne1's live performances of FIRE hahaha and I guess from browsing throught the soompi forum. Iunno, I think they'd be snazzy haha. Atleast their less boring than my chucks that I normally wear to work at marukai or the black skater shoes I have /: I usually wear my creepers to work too but haha, needed something new? And not to mention they were on sale at Shiekk for $10! and they were originally $60 :O I really wanted the blackxleopard print high tops from PUNKROSE I saw at the Hot Topic website alittle while ago, but you know what, they've been long gone and whatever. I like cows too ahhaha. this would go fine with the new hot pink pants I got too from Tillys that were only $10 hahaha, I was definitely iffy bout them, but they were bright, obnoxious and would definitely work alright with the shoes LOL! Not to mention I do need more pants /: now for the random photos out of boredom. INKED! :O the bottom 2 photos are just random snapshots I took while we were at AX eating at Dennys on our last night there.
ps: I tried out my black circle lenses today, and wow, I just realized how squinty my eyes really are! :O definitely gotta thank the chinese side for that? hahaha iunno it was funny coz my friend, who was in the bathroom with me while I was trying to put them on, mentioned that all 3 of us siblings made comments about our squinty eyes randomly throughout the time shes known us hahahaha. As if we didnt really notice it nd have just have to a sudden realization to it lol.
I'll post a pic of them later on, I forgot to take one when I had them on LOL!
=__= i swear to god no offense to anyone who is a fan of twilight but seriously, I cant stand the actress of twilight, she probly did fit the well perfectly since I cant stand her character at allLOL she looks so gothic and gloomy and well. boring. exactly how bella was explained in the book (or from the little bit that I actually given it teh little time of day of the book) Iunno I'm just rambling because i'm hearing the commercial about comic con and how they were showing tid bits from the Twilight panel. w/essss. its also funny coz i know 2 people irl who looks exactly like the gloomy chick (aka bella) from Twilight ;P eww. do not want.
work was super busy earlier and now I'm exhausted. Shin was originally coming over but well, things happened so i'm probably am not going to see him for awhile till I seriously get my shit together then. life goes on, it sucks but it is what it is /:
reading my friends blog (she goes to Paul Mitchel school and I went to Marinellos) makes me really think hmm...wow, maybe I should have tried going to other schools /: but cant change that now, I enjoy what I do. I was just meeh coz they have a makeup class that specializes in photoshoots and whatnot and, well, shins looking into going to Paul Mitchell school. iunno, it just kinda feels like yeah. He really wont need me around anymore. I probly should stop holding onto what we have and just accept things as the way it is. Hes a growing artist, he'll find his own new concepts, own makeup ideas, stylings and possibly a new photographer and get into bigger and better things. I really dont know why I'm saying this when I pride myself in my work and am and will continue to work hard till I get recognized and build more and more of a better portfolio D: but iunno.
a part of growing up is also learning to let go?
speaking of vampires, yeah I just totally changed subjects like that coz I can. I was reading vampire knight earlier at work since one-manga.com just recently updated it with a new chapter. and. GOODGAWD What I was I thinking?! I really dont know why I keep reading this manga when I already soo many flaws in it. I cant stand the character, the weak plot and just how overly dramatic everything and it really doesnt grab me /: iunno, seriously, no offense to anyone who likes vampire knight but I totally feel like I have a love x hate relationship with it. Honestly, it shouldnt even really be considered lovexhate when. I feel like I just read it coz its there and i'm bored /: I like the uniform design. Definitely one of the far more snazzier uniforms I've seen to come out from an anime and I did admit to wanting to own one just to wear once and thats it, but D: ugh. seriously. XD gawd. iunno, I was just probly going off on everything and anythingg I could have earlier at work =___= but yeah, Marukai was pretty slow then it picked up since more and more people kept coming in for the 20% off sale at work. I'm sure tomorrow would be hell but I'm not working tomorrow 8D
but, again, I feel like if I'm not going to be seeing him, I might as well not be wasting time (lol instead of lounging around and relaxing - enjoying my weekend) i should be working TAT. I'm still waiting to hear word from my friend if he'll be free at all anytime tomorrow or sometime in the weekend or weekday so we can possibly try and look at the car honda civic I found. D: It suchs working around peoples schedule when you, yourself have stuff to do TAT and I really need the car too. ugggh its so frustrating just the whole process and whatnot.
ps: my black circle lenses came in today :o cant wait to try it out tomorrow and see how it looks lul. And I got a new cross earring, well, its the same exact one I had before but its GOLD D: they didnt have the silver one anymore TAT personally, I feel like I'm more of a silver than gold person D: everything else I wear is silver and so it just feels akward having a single cross earring /: since my other dangly is Shin's crown earring which is like titanium D: so wow, totally off colored and the barbels I have on as the rest of my earrings are all silverxblack LOL so totally off~
pps: I want to try and bleach my eye brows brown tomorrow /: coz, my hair is a lighter brown and my eye brows are still dark as hell. Iunno why but I just got impulsive and want to do it. I wonder if Phoebe can bring me bleach tomorrow /:
