2 post in one day?! whuut?! or was it 3?! clearly this is me avoiding sewing my life away so soon xD;;

after work, I ran to Baskin Robins to get me some Snickers Ice Cream :3
my guilty pleasure. The sad thing was. The guy that was serving me must have looked at me like I'm some kind of loser D:
for...
1. I'm buying ice cream by myself.
2. I'm too cheap to buy 2 scoops xD
3. I didnt have CASH on me, and the minimum for debit transactions was $5! but he let me get away with it.
it was kinda embarrasssing coz I keep thinking that these kids/guys must go to the same school as my sister...err...her old school atleast HAHA. But I'm pretty sure their not on sabre team! I dont want them talking to my sister going 'hey! i saw your older sister buying ice cream by herself on a friday night!'
xDDD oooohhh maaaan ROFLMAO

oh thats quite pathetic. yes. its not new that I simply spend Friday nights alone LOL.

so I decided to walk around the parking lot eating my ice cream and I went to CVS and just browse around.
Was testing out new foundations too and etc. Then I ended up at Target. Bumming around, Not really wanting to come home. because, theres nothing or no one to come home to D:
I always come home to a dark house. or a house thats not even mine. Filled with people I dont know. and I proceed to lock myself in my room for the duration of the night.

Times like these I wish I was somewhere else. DOing something else.
At school. Working on a project. In a dorm in a university, studying my ass off or working on a project till the the break of dawn. Or at some concert. A late night photoshoot. Or in New York or Downtown LA in my own pad overlooking the city. It would probably still be lonely, but I'd sit in my balcony overlooking the dingy city.

but yeah while at target~ I picked up a new lip balm LOL. its COTTON CANDY! I'm a sucker for cotton candy. Cant lie about that :D ahahaha and I remember my mom / dad use to get us the SMACKERS brand and I was like O_O hoshit I didnt know they came jumbo like that LOL and obviously curiosity got the best of me and wanted to dive back a few years back~
its yummy LOL!

and I also got a 'compression' shirt. Basically its just a super tight work out shirt LOL that I can use for binding down for AX.



but yeah back to what I was talking about earlier. I sometimes wonder what people think?
I've sat at yogurt world by myself before too with headphones on though.
but sometimes when I do that. I sometimes wonder to my self.
What do people think? What they think - does it even matter? I'm simply curious.

anyways. I had intended on writing something longer and somewhat more philosophical about it but clearly that has escaped my mind LOL! my head tends to wonder off when I'm driving home.

anyways...

I think my bag has alot of crap. I carry too much crap in my backpack.
I have random items in there...




lol....vitagummies~ my mom sent me some vegetable and fruit vitamin gummies LOL coz I dont eat enough of them. So for convenience purposes I stuff it in my backpack O_O
and my makeup bag~ which carries...my life LOL! In it...lets seee..
2-3 sticks of eyeliner LOL
sharpener
lip balm
and cotton candy flavored lip balm
lip stick and gloss - which I rarely wear
powder
tooth paste and tooth brush. LOL yes! I carry tooth paste and tooth brush with me! this is why my makeup bag is so stuff! D:

I really should minimize my stuff more.

Drinks~ planner~ notebook~
mp3 player + charger (you never know when that shits going to die on you!)
DS + charger (again! same reasoning!)

I think with a big back pack, you just tend to fill it up because you can! bad habbit is bad D:
and for some reason I also have an issue of Game Informer in there xD;;

and 2 unopened sticks of Haichu candy and 1 granola bar which I'm sure got sucked into the deep darkness of the abyss that is my back pack. Yes. Quite unfashionable :D

I really should be sewing instead of wanking around the computer~

so I just realized I havent played video games in so long.
I want to play games D:

SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK! :D LIFE IS MOVING A MILE A MINUTE
lololol. theres no time for stopping / sleeping @.@

busy week is busy TAT

I'm soooo exhausted but I cant complain / bitch about it because work needs to be done! D':

last night I worked on 2 wig commissions! w00t w00t knocked them out of the ball park!

but I still got a few more sewing to do D: and alot of errands and chores to run.
I'm seriously about ready to pass out.
lol the other night, I came home instead of going to the gym and PASSED out on my bed @.@ and woke up in a panic!
xD thinking that I might have slept the night away! jeeeez con stress. I havent dealt with this in a while hahahaha. Its more insane now though coz theres just so many other things going on TAT

FUCK MONKEY.

I still gotta do this:

-Order the fake mustache for bro's costume
-FIND a white shirt for bro and sew ruffles onto it
-PAINT his gloves TAT
-Finish Megans kimono AND waist cincher
-FINISH MY AND TOSHI'S TOPS! EGONERIOHNEH DDD':
-I dont remember if I have to make Mei's boots anymore or vest D': i have no time or money anymore LOL

and I'm BROKKKE I just did my account log again TAT and I just ordered my train ticket today too. whoo~
I also left my 1st job early today coz I got called in to my 2nd job D: hopefully the boss at job1 doesnt mine me leaving so abruptly lately. and the bullshit thing is, I forgot to ask for time off for AX! D: I dont think they mind....? but I need to ask them on monday anyway. I'm just worried coz of all the mess ups lately.

I'm exhausted / drained xD / burnt.

Sat:
- Wake up SUPER early at 7am! Recycle cans from grandma house and give the money to my brother =3=ll
- GO HOME and SHOWER ASAP and haul ass up to Oceanside (40 mins away) and meet with Ruka and help her style her Falcoon jam wig. I'm still debating if I'll bring Falcoon Bridget with me. Most likely not unless I decide to go a darker blonde for AX when clearly my hair is like silver blonde x black x purple. I stuck extensions at the bottom but its a DARKER blonde TAT so I need to find light blonde to match the rest of my hair xD coz I doubt toner would work on the extensions, their a milk tea color D:
i mean, its not THAT bad lol. but I'm just hardcorexx
- AFTER working in Oceanside, I gotta haul back down to SD and SEWWW like crazy!
- 1 AM Anthony is coming to pick-me up and go to Menifee coz I need to sew there like crazy on sunday / help Amanda

Sunday:
- I should be already in Menniffee again sewing / helping Amanda sew like a mad woman
- Head back down to SD and get ready for work!

Monday:
- PLS PLS PLS TRY AND SQUEEZE IN GYM TIME!

Tuesday:
-CLASS STARTS!

Tuesday - Thursday: Attempted to catch up on HW

Friday night:
- TRY not to pass out :D
- catch up on home work!
- SEW!

Saturday:
- Heading up to LA to meet with Courtney to style her wig!
- play around at Little Tokyo / Find korea town since my sister has never been there
- drive back
- sew some more

Sunday:
- FUCK I BETTER HAVE EVERYTHING DONE BECAUSE AX IS THE WEEK AFTER THIS LOLOL!!!!

Yes, here is my hectic schedule. Is hectic and I still havent figured out what to wear to AX / sewn anything other than cosplay to wear!

And I'm too busy juggling other peoples stuff D:

Tonight - I will try not to pass out, I WANT to treat myself to some Baskin Robins and get the 'sneakers' ice cream one O_O
ommmmg I loooooove that TAT but I feel bad spending shit on myself when clearly I need to spend money on the kids instead of me D':

ok, I admit I suck badly at updates. I definitely try and update my LiveJournal more, but yeah
thats 'friends locked' only. But I dont discriminate on who add me/i add. Just pls drop me a line.
The only reason why i kept it friends locked is coz I tend to talk about more...well, other stuff
but honesly. 80% of the time I just talk about nonsense there so I dont know why I dont convert
part of it to be public? iunno~ lol. I just fail like that :D
theres a nice sense of seperation regardless. I think. So. um. Yeah.

Progress has definitely slowed down on working on AX items. I havent even asked for
time off yet from my 1st job! WOW D: I need to do that. I've already cleared it with my 2nd job.
So its all good I think for the most part.

AX Break Down:
-Hakuouki - Heisuke Western ver.
very very closet rushed cosplay.
I'm borrowng the wig from Toshi, I like to call it her ikemen wig :D lolz~
white button up shirt is courtesy of my brothers closet
the vest, which looks quite expensive despite it being so simple o-oll is courtesy of Shin's closet
which I'm sure hes not aware I have?D: suuuush LOL (it doesnt help when I'm clearly posting this publicly
but he doesnt read my blogs so whutevah?) well, Steph handed me the vest so I'm guessing doosh left it there?
whutevs xD hahahaha

-Vocaloid - Eager Love Revenge.
I already finished my skirt and Toshi's pants. Slowly painfully working on the shirts
which honestly shouldnt even take me that long! But I've spent a good chunk of time
working on other peoples costumes / helping people on their costumes.

I still have 2 wigs to style for a friend which I havent had time to work on.

My family is in town, well my siblings are. And. hehehe. Drama. Miscommunication.
Lotsa driving around, wasting gas and etc~

nyaaah I need my paycheck NOW DDD: I only have $100 which is good for the hotel, but I still gotta
get a day badge and my train ticket up there and hoping to have some spending money on the side when I get up there
I'm not even looking at much but atleast to HAVE SOME sort of pocky money would be awesome~

I got 3 packages that came in for me yesterday~ yay.
but fail~ for no pictures HAHA!

1 - stainless steel surgical earrings. Their the same ones U-Know wears from DBSK
I'm not a big DBSK fan at all, but I needed new earrings? XDD and they were dirt cheap via ebay~
and hahah sorry I'm going to gross you guys out but LOL
when I took off my gauges to replace them with the earrings I got~ oh man! foul smell was foul!
O_Oll so I cleaned it up reaaaaaaaaaal good xD gaawd that was nasty hahahaha

2 - business cards, ghetto business cards freecourtesy of Vista Prints. I just took
their generic designs. I also placed my 'myspace' instead of my website coz I havent gotten around to buying a domain yet
D: and I need to get working on that. I know I'm sorry I keep telling myself that!
but! I"ve also been working on articles to upload onto the new blog site soon? :D
and tutorials as well? :D

3 - film for my fujiinstax. To tell the truth. I have 40 films for it, but I kinda want more O_Oll
I know I probably wont run through all of the films but still! D: its a security thing haha
so I think I might order another 20 JUST incase D':

Also! AX weekend~~ me and toshi are probably going to run off to the theatre sometime to check out the
AVATAR AirBender movie. I'm REALLY iffy ok, UNHAPPY with the casting! I swear
if the next movie with Toph comes out and shes not asian D: ommmmmfg thats just fucked up.
lol no i'm not racist but I still vote that Dante Basco SHOULD have been Zuko =3=

But yeah, with my family in town and etc. Its been hard for me to try and squeeze in the time
to try and finish working on a few costumes! D: and not to mention the space especially when my
sister is crashing with me in my room from time to time.
And I've been deadly exhausted lately.

but yeah, this entry is definitely on a much lighter note.

EDIT:
LOL DAYUM my hair is so fried that my jmullet turned into an A-line LOLZ the bottoms are friiiied
lol.
so I stucked back extensions in again xDll just the shorter ones not the hella long ones I had before.
Too bad the ones I have are like....BLONDE not Silvergreyish like my hair xDD so I was looking at ebay and I found some
16" greyish silver and silvery blonde ones too O_Oll for $15~ I migh ask them if I can split the quantity for silvery blonde x greyish silver so I get two tones. but I doubt i'll come in, intime for AX~ but I emailed them anyway to see how it bodes~