throw backs and revamps

Another updated entry, wow are we on a roll!?! but here we are with the updated *finished* revamped version of K Project [ 伏見猿比古] for my friend; Sakuran who will be debuting this costume at Anime Weekend Atlanta. As you know Version 1.0 debuted at Yaoi-con but here is a revamped version and refitted. Complete with the harness and a revamped look, still quite similar to the first one but I'm a lot more excited about this version! Please like and reshare my facebook page too or tag the photos to either of our accounts~ I'm sad I won't be able to make it to AWA since prior obligation is definitely outweighing going ontop of school seriously kicking me hard. But definitely looking forward to putting some of the new things I've learned into practice and looking forward to doing more designs and sewing in the future...(I say this nowahaha) 

who else is currently streaming Worlds cup? And I don't mean soccer or football but talking about League of Legends summoners cup aka Worlds OvO;; man, its such a stomach churning game while watching ahaha. I was able to catch Day 1 but a little late that I missed TSM's match but luckily youtube has it so you can back track and rewatch. OH man, I'm streaming day 2 as we speak. I'm clearly a day behind but uwu;; this makes me miss playing but who has time anymore...uwuwu...

  
Who are your favorite team that your voting for? A little disappointed that SKT-1 didn't make it to this years Worlds. I remember watching Faker play Ahri and basically dominate in S3 and that pretty much got me interested in playing the game AND playing Ahri OvO

I dug out an old very vi-gei shirt aha I felt I haven't worn that in years its kinda odd now but its still a fun shirt. I kinda do miss dressing like that aha but I feel theres been a bag stigma on it idk orz...I still miss SPR aha. And I felt like throw back-ing it lol (is that even a word?!) to a few years ago when I decided it was a good idea to bleach my hair silver...aha...wow. Wig it from now on lol..and back then I didn't know how to do makeup as well lol oh shit....so I can rest assure 16-18 yr old me would have thought *this* me would be such a badass ahahaha... or is it a case of expectation vs reality? expectation being the one on the left....ahaha... reality would be....ahaha me a few years ago AHAHA no photos but if you dig deep enough on my blog you can! AHHA ohnoes

 

was cleaning out some stuff and found my old Marjour shirt hello....

and I also dug deeper and found my prisma markers since I don't really want to buy a new set at almost $60 for a new set /: If anything I just need to pickup a few different colors and some colorless blenders too...

Also need to get a pencil set soon too uwu hoarding coupons like you don't even know....

fashion/ art school is really expensive without financial aid ): and everything is out of pocket...

lack of sleep and stress has caused my skin to just not be at its best, so I wanted to try a new foundation or go back to something familiar so I grabbed some Bare Minerals online (so much cheaper vs buying in store even with a  coupon at ulta) its great also if your in a rush in the morning and just cannot be arsed with liquid foundation and etc ): definitely a natural skin finish. Coverage is a-ok.

Such a hipster set of photos....theres no other words for it ahaaha but I've had this wig for a while but IDK I just haven't quite worn it or its just weird to photograph? AHAHA I have a similar wig too that my sister used for her popstar ahri except the purple on this one is on the bangs versus the other wig she's been using where the purple is streaked throughout the hair...

Waiting for the holidays so I can jump on some circle len sales. I still have quite a bit thats unopened from my last haul but always taking advantage of the sales though ahaha....I also really need to visit the optometrist soon coz I definitely know my prescription is dated ):

Still a little unsure about PMX...work work work and we're gearing up towards Mid-terms now...

I've also been eyeing a new pair of VW earrings....I want the stud ones and a new ring but the right is alittle out of budget for now...

Hopefully everyone had fun at yaoi-con this last weekend, I had every intention on going but due to scheduling conflict and bigger obligations it was a no go for me. Instead I attended my brothers bachelor party. Wow time sure flies. I remember when we use to kill each other practicing wrestling moves and jumping off my moms bedframe.

The wedding in a few weeks and I still haven't gotten my shit together on what the fuck I'm gonna wear nor had I planned a speach. I probably need to be pretty drunk for this one coz its gonna be super corny, embarrassing, tear jerking and just I dont do public speaking infront of close friends/family lol. Coz you know how you have you infront of your friends and the 'you' infront of elders and etc..yeah...I'm definitely gonna need a good dose of some liquid courage as the time comes up and probably improve the crap out of this coz...ain't nobody got time for this.

or I can just pull a few lines and speeches from a few movies...heh... I wonder how many of the relatives will be judging considering they dont know I drink/can drink..

I digress, but another filler post just to get this out there I guess...

Heres K Project military jacket version 2.0

version 1.0 debuted this past weekend at Yaoi-con but due to possibly miscalculations

it turned to be a little bit snug and  I had spent the last few hours panicking since I had promised to get the costume ready for Y-con..

turns out it got snug onthe shoulder and arm area due to some shoulder pads...==;;

but nonetheless sped haste to the store right after work on Friday to gather some needed supplies to crank this badboy out ASAP.

Spent a determined yet sleepless friday night cranking out the base and crawling out of bed like a zombie a few hours later to get to work.

Shameful enough I kept catching myself dozing at my desk. oh no....

no coffee, no food 

I just couldn't hang. Good thing the office closed early that day and I ran home for a power nap before getting up to cook for the bachelor party and gather a few other stuff in preparation for it...

 

 

 

 Not much happened at the party and we tried to get as many people involved in the debauchery but it was definitely lackluster of glitter and strippers and most especially cake.

It just was not his scene but commend him for even trying.

 

I ended up with a cut on my finger without realizing it and I was gutting the pineapple...

yooo....thats not fun...

 

I caught myself tear up this morning. I caught myself before I fell.
I knew it was over and I closed that chapter but once in a while that book falls open and all you can do is stare at it.

The only lesson you taught me is the lesson that no one would want you. I pulled myself out of my own comfort zone because I felt I needed to bend and break to reform a stronger me...
This has been my life, my domain and my permanent spot the last few weeks. Everything is an organized mess but no surface is left safe. I even went as far as taking over the top bunk as a dumping ground for laundry and other stuff that I just need out of the way...

I keep grumbling at how expensive school is considering everything is coming out of pocket I just hope at the end of the year I can claim all these on taxes....
I'm starting to enjoy Fashion sketching a bit more but the work load that comes with it ontop of commissions and gym is just too much but its a challenge I accepted  even if it came with lack of sleep and deeper eye bags. Oh well.   I'm tired of waking up tired & hungry.
My sketches still need quite a bit of work, I can't seem to get the proportions down on the calves that or I simply rush it or just YOLO it but I need to refine that more and more as we are almost nearing mid-terms...
My flats I'm more confident on but the figures... oh the figures...
I'm looking forward to a power nap after work and then tackling more homework. Working out will have to take a back burner once again or just finding time to work out in between..
once commissions are done again, I feel I can devote some crunch time there once again...

Checking in...

 Checking in before I let months pass all over again, I still haven't had time to devote to wrapping up my photo edits from some past photoshoots and I still have quite a bit of work ahead of me, namely planning out the Spirited Away shoot but I have wrapped up the Howl Commission and has succesfully shipped it out and waiting for some photos back.

I'm stuck at work burred in work and homework and the responsibilities of a Bachelor party (yes you read it right, bachelor....not bachlorette..) while everyone is at Yaoi-con...or Y am I not there con. But oh well, responsibilities.

I feel I completely underestimated the amount of work it really goes into school especially sketching class, I've heard horror stories about art classes but I didn't expect it to be this challenging. Its a good challenge but its definetely have its up and downs. I find myself devoting 2-3 hours a night working on the homework and I feel its not even enough.

I'm taking 2 fashion classes this semester and I can only imagine how much I'll wanna hang myself come next semester.

Let me just start by saying I am no artist, I was not blessed with hands that can sketch, draw or paint. Its all a struggle to me but I know with enough practice and diligence you could train your muscle and eye to move to how you want it to be. Thats the thing I feel I lack the most is practice...juggling full time work hours, gym hours and then commission and homework is not the business. I have been getting less and less sleep lately but thats nothing new, except this time it feels justified due to progress. My biggest critique right now is getting the leg proportions right on the croquis...

sketching hands and feet on a separate paper is ok but for some reason getting them on the body is a whole nothing ball game...or even getting the leg proportions down too...practice...

I also tried to turn my hair a violet base again, I yolo mode too much the other time and threw black-blue temp dye over my head and now parts of my hair are fading to a green tone...I threw redpurple over it but its not taking it in...and continues to fade out...some parts of my hair are also bleached out so that too is fading quite fast....well...then...

Don't you hate it when you've given yourself a certain period of time to try and locate an item you lost and ultimately giving up and giving in to replacing it only to find out the same day you find said lost item?..

I've lost my Raybans and scratched up my other shades really badly to the point I can't really see with them..oops I googled up ways to fix it but driving in direct sunlight just no no no. Wrinkles no no no. So I caved and got new shades (woah not happy with the price but the quality is nice tbh) but then thatsame day I found my Raybans == and was tempted to return this pair but...I....like it orz...dammit...

This has been my life, my world the last few weeks, I sometimes question the direction I'm going and if this will really get me anywhere but after last nights session in class on learning how to do the flats and sketches and how the professor placed an emphasis that you can draw shitty croquis but excel in flats, thats where the job market is... so thats a little light of hope since I'm a little bit more confident in my flats... I can tell this is gonna be a painful and expensive semester...

I still have to order my markers and pencils and I'm definitely not looking forward to that but excited at the same time. Financial aid pls....

時々 | 初音ミク

Another throw back and redo.

I remember a few years ago when me & Toshi did Vocaloid LOVE IS WAR. It was definitely a failure. It was so hot. And the wig was just not happening. I remember we were very particular with colors since potato modes. 

I think this may be 3-4 years old? I don't quite recall but I'm sure FB will remind me and I'll be crying and screaming internally...

That was the first time in a really long time I wore a cosplay and a girl for that matter, years previously I mostly did crossplay but fast forward to now, I just dont do any anymore. Cosplaying her was intimidating at the time and to this day still since you get so many good Vocaloid cosplay/cosplayers and some with mediocre store bought ones though thats not to say they dont pull through the character...

I'm posting this now because I actually read some tacky bad commentary from another persons facebook account that had tagged our photos. The comment was in Chinese but I'm no fool. I know what I read ahaha..... 

I digress. The point is, I was traumatized by this ahaha that may sound extreme but seriously, wow. I decided to revisit this years later with much trial and error with makeup to now. I can finally rest this aside knowing I was able to re-do....